Doesn't life suck?

Doesn't it suck? The fact I will never be that girl who can enjoy a piece of cake or a chocolate bar. I will never be the girl who has a breakfast or a decent meal without feeling the guilt. All I want is to be normal and happy with the way I look but I know I will never be that person and sadly this is the life I'll have to lead. 

Is this normal?

Is this normal? Is it normal that I can't sit where I want in my own home? Is it normal that I'm scared to talk when he's around? I'm haunted by his footsteps, the floorboards creek and all I want to do is hide. His masculine figure so big he could break me in half with one poke. 

His angry facial expressions when I talk or just be myself. I hold my breath when he walks past, praying I'm not doing something wrong or doing something that might make him angry. I can never seem to please, everyone makes it clear I'm their biggest mistake.

This isn't normal, this isn't 'family'. Being scared to watch TV or read a book, because somehow I'm doing it wrong or I'm in his way. I want to escape him, I want to be free.

Loss

Tonight my heart broke, it was as if I watched my best friend slip through my fingers and I had no grip, I just had to let her go. She is so beautiful but her eyes just don't sparkle like they used to. 

I'm her number one fan, if she was a singer I would have bought all her albums, if she was a dancer I'd buy a ticket to every show, if she was a actor I'd watch her film every night. 

I can't help her, but man I want to. Oh what I would do to swap places with her so she wouldn't have such pain, she'd be free from the same room, same bed, same halls. 

She's always been special, she's always just been that amazing person that everyone wants in their lives. I'm so glad she's in mine and I'm not ready to let her go, I will fight for her.